Ive been blogging here for almost a year now. When I first started a marginal walker it was just going to be a blog of random musings ( it still is, or I hope it is! ) As regular readers are aware I have blogged a lot about my late mother and her breast cancer battle.

The archives of the blog in relation to what mum, my family and her friends went through are all there to be read. It is frank, sometimes raw and deeply personal. It had to be. I want those archives to serve as a warning, a possible window into the future for women out there who are afraid to go to the Doctor if they have found any lumps or changes in their breasts. Delay the issue and you die like my mum.

If those blog postings from Nov 2005 - Feb 2006 can somehow make a difference for a worried woman and influence her to go to get a check up, then the sharing of my pain and grief throughout the whole process would have been worthwhile if it ended up saving someone’s life.

Last night, I was in conversation with someone who came across my blog a few weeks ago. She had read all the posts of this blog. Somehow though, she believed that I am a very unhappy person after reading my blog and she found that unsettling.

( I originally included some swear words here, but I have edited them out.. )

Apologies, but anyone who has lost a loved one due to a horrific illness such as metastatic breast cancer can not be happy every day during and after the whole process. Her comments have angered me so much that I am posting them on this blog.

My blog, and everyone’s else’s blog only captures a small part of a person’s life. Personally I lead a good comfortable life with a lot of laughter these days which has been such a fantastic comfort during days when I have felt unhappy. There is so much yet to do, such as musical ambition which can often trouble me due to either slight procrastination or lack of will.

I only post on what I feel is relevant at the time. If its a happy post then so be it. If it is a melancholic toned posting then again, so be it.

On closing I really hope that this girl never wakes up and discovers breast lumps, or has any close family members in the future with any form of terrible illness that is too far gone for treatment. If it does happen, you certainly wont be smiling or feeling positive everyday. In fact, during that time you might get told by some fool that you are a very unhappy person.

That would be rather unsettling wouldnt it?

Dear readers, Apologies for the lack of blog posts recently. I really have sod all to comment on.

Everything is at a standstill outside work and music..

The weather has been really decent in Glasgow recently, hence my blog postings have been limited..

The most commonly used keywords for this blog are:

Glen Michael
Anusol
Sex
Stephen Sherry
marginal walker

In fact, there are a lot of people searching for me on Google. If you are reading this and you typed Stephen Sherry in Google search, I’m curious as to why. If I’m famous without knowing it, let me know.

Speaking of Glen Michael, Ive not seen him around recently. However I actually enjoy his show on Saga FM every Sunday evening. He plays some really good tracks, from music hall ditties to movie soundtrack music. Mature chilled out music. He is worth a listen.

I couldn’t believe it that Cecil Buckland is actually 80 years old. I will continue to say, if I’m 80 in this life, I want to be as young and healthy looking as him.

My time away from blogging has caused a MASSIVE decline in readership. At the peak of its powers, a marginal walker was getting about under a 1000 hits a day, with a few comments and a good number of private emails.

Now that is not happening anymore. Its like starting all over again. Im currently getting 5 hits per day and about 20 spam comments to add to the falling ratings.

Now, is it the good summer weather that has contributed to the near non readership as well as my blogging sabbatical?

Or are my blog postings just devoid of interest?

Answers on a postcard.