Damn you woman, damn you.

You wont see me today, you wont see my tommorow.
You ended up turning me and others inside out with your stupidity.
When I saw you that night a year ago tonight, all I asked was is my dinner in the oven?
You reply with something that made me collapse with shock and pain.
You then go through hell and dreadful pain.
You were refused treatment because you left it all too late.
You died because of your stupidity.
You left us without support
You left your grandchildren who hardly knew you. They will never really know you. You will be just an afterthought to them.
You will never see my success, or enjoy it, or bask in proudness. Nor will you see the children Ive yet to Father.
Right now Mum, If I saw you, Id shout at you and call you a stupid cow.
One examination at the right time, and I would have been enduring your rotten cooking this evening.

Damn you mother, damn you. Tonight it is hard to love or respect you.

( The above was not a poem or meant to be one. Im not a poet.)