Ive kind of dreaded this weekend but at the same time I’m glad it has finally arrived. I have approached the anniversary of the start of the end of my old life. A year ago the love of my life ended things with me quite suddenly. Relationships end all the time these days, but it was swift and it was a shock to the system.

Our time together was mostly happy and passionate. It took a long time to get over. Its human nature to look back at times past, analysing what one did, where did one go wrong, what could/ SHOULD have I done? Oh boy the things I should have done and maybe that girl would still be with me today. Well.. on second thoughts most likely she wouldnt be as everything has changed..

But then, analysis of failed relationships are fruitless. It doesn’t bring the love back, it doesn’t bring that person back. There is a reason for everything. I had to be with her as she did with me, but time passes and people change.

Who I was then is not who Stephen is now. Physically I am the same man, but personality wise I am almost completely different and personally I feel all the better for the evolution of Stephen Sherry. The Stephen of today would not have been attracted to the girl I was with. The girl who I was with would not be attracted to the man I am today.

I have no regrets apart from one which has destroyed us being good friends in this present. Break ups are messy for the majority, and I made a few comments to her that were pretty dreadful. I hold my hand up.

It always annoys me these days whenever I hear people moaning how they cant live without their former boyfriend/girlfriend. Its all a mind trick. Love is a mental illness ( call me bitter.. ) In my opinion if you cant live without another person then your life must be a big empty pit.

Very soon there will be another anniversary to deal with. Shortly after my relationship ended, my mother told me something that destroyed my old life and this blog has well documented all of that..