Well, for me and the family anyway.

We finally made it through to the Professor who is treating my mother’s Breast and secondary lung/bone cancer today. It wasn’t good news.

The fluid in the lung situation has revealed that mum’s lung is ‘riddled’ with lung cancer. This was the reason that the plural procedure was not working.

Her cancer is at a very advanced stage now. We asked about the magical pills they promised, the answer to that was at the time they did not realise how far it had gone.

She is poorly in hospital right now, but at least she is eating again.

The breast cancer and lung cancer specialists are meeting tomorrow or later in the week to find out what the way forward is. However we have been told that they are not gods and cant do miracles. She wont be cured, and they don’t know when the bad day is going to happen.

The usual, weeks, months line was spun. Of course they don’t know.

This is what happens when a person does not go to the Doctor when their breast starts to discolour, or has a cough that doesnt go away.

We are prepared for that event. We have to carry on, be strong for my mum’s sake. She wont be home for Xmas it seems.

I never spent last xmas with mum. We had a little falling out and I decided to spend the holiday with the most wonderful family that my ex girlfriend has. I had a superb time. The finest Xmas I had in many years.

I was happy and made a resolve that next Xmas with mum and the rest of my family would be as good as the one I was experiencing.

Now the tides of time passes, and the reality is very different. Life is incredibly strange at times. It should never be a battle. However life always strikes the first blow and battle commences regardless if you don’t wish to battle through life.

Now as the sun sets on the second chapter of my life, I can only wonder what next Xmas is going to be like.

My parents loved Xmas, and always made sure my brothers and I got everything we asked for. It was always a good time being at home then. If mum is not here then perhaps I should make sure that the Xmas holidays I have without her has the same kind of festive spirit they created and make sure everyone I spend Xmas with be touched by it.